If you’ve read yesterday’s post, you know I was going to post the explanation to my poem. Usually I don’t share the true meaning of my poems because they hold some personal issues, but I have become comfortable sharing my past hurts and emotions lately. I know there are others out there that also have the same hurts and issues I have and I want us to band together and help each other overcome! Some things are past feelings, some are new. The poem is a mixture of emotions! Below is the meaning…
Have you seen her? – literal.
The one with the brown eyes, you get so lost inside? – A good friend of mine once told me my eyes were mysterious and they held a deep story, so I stuck with it.
With negativity that sits on her left and her right side? – Negative people and their comments have always surrounded me in my life. Most of the time, I was talked to in a negative way.
Crushing the existence of the innocence she once held? – Negative put downs of my dreams and aspirations. Crushing my hopes and beliefs that anything is possible.
Fighting her through others from the words they expel? – People used negative words so much, so it always seemed like I was fighting others off.
The one frightened by all of the pain she might cause? – Afraid I’m going to hurt others by my true feelings and opinions.
Because of the hurt she never dealt with, still at a loss? – Many painful events in my life, some I never dealt with, still feeling like I win, with a bunch of losses.
Angry, hurthing others with the solitude she loves? – Loving to be alone because it brings out all of my creativity, but then because I would rather not deal with the STUPIDITY.
Painting a picture every time she’s around loved ones? – Not really telling the truth about my whole story, leaving a lot of painful details out because no one would ever understand anyway.
Reality is fiction, but to others, vice versa? – My reality is fiction, but to others they think it’s all reality.
Thoughts of another, possibly Formosa? – Wanting to leave to a distant place, somewhere I’ve never been. The city Formosa in Argentina.
The one who’s made up her mind to love at a distance? – Having tried to reach out to others and even do “their thing” while still being judged because of my religious choices. While I do care about them, I’d rather love them from a distance because I’m not going to judge or be judged.
With a future void of any negative persistence? – Negativity can’t be escaped, but someone who is constantly negative or persistent with negativity is not and will not be in my future.
Have you seen her? – There are many like me; people who haven’t dealt with some or all of their issues and they go unnoticed. Meaning, have you seen them too?
**Tomorrow’s Post: An outline I wrote about 5 years ago. It’s specific for those who have been abused physically, emotionally, or sexually, male or female. Share it with those you feel could use a healing process.**